Serenetxl

I wonder if anyone else actually has this problem. :/ Because I actually find this happening to me very often LOL. ANNNNNND because of this problem, I don't have much photos to post up on DA and some of the other social network sites. OTL

Like, I see many other of my cosplay friends having so many shoots in a year and I sometimes wonder how they can actually afford so much time and effort to dedicate themselves to this many shoots. D: It applies to both casual and cosplay shoots.

I guess i'm probably lacking the drive to push myself to have a shoot. If i have the drive to have a shoot and plan for it, I would have more photoshoots! oAo

There would definitely be other elements that contribute to the lack of photoshoots: like the lack of money LOL. I have to work and save up so I can buy materials for cosplay outfits OR to buy casual outfits that fit the theme of my casual shoot. Next comes the element of time as well, because it takes time to prepare for a shoot. It depends on how much effort you'd want to put into the shoot as well.

There's a saying which goes like, "Success take hard work, luck and time". And that's actually pretty true.

For a photoshoot to actually SUCCESSFULLY take place, you need time to commit to the preparations of the shoot. That includes location recces, preparing the outfit, planning the theme, thinking about and trying out various make up styles to suit your theme (or character), etc. Then comes the planning of the shots, which you have to do so by communicating with your photographer. owo The worst thing to happen in any shoot is miscommunications with the photographer, really. Never ever let that happen.

And during the whole commitment process of the shoot, you have to work hard to prepare for the shoot. Even if you're given a long time to do the preps, nothing will really happen if you don't have hard work in the equation. If you're not willing to work hard for this shoot that you're in, no amount of time can make the shoot work lol. And if you're willing to put in a certain amount of hard work for the shoot, the shoot will take less time to happen as well.

The luck part of the photoshoot usually depends on the weather haha. I guess we've all had times when rain came at unwanted moments. OTL But sometimes rain may just play an important part in your shoot, and it doesn't arrive. D: So it all depends on your luck for the day in order to let the shoot run smoothly. xD

Anyways, I don't know why i ended up talking about this. I guess i was fed up seeing the lack of photos that i have. Maybe i should start saving up for future shoots already. owo

Hello, I'm officially back on DA!! D

*pops champagne* owo

With this, I hope i can start finding my passion for cosplay again. I seem to have lost it just recently. I think I hit a rut or something... Like, when you do something and then you start to find it irritating. I have no idea why, but prolly coz I don't have much motivation. :< Let's hope I can start anew.

Anyways, I still be focusing on my singing a lot. Won't neglect cosplay, but I'll just take it slow for now. )

At least I'm trying to keep my DA alive now. Will upload photos like, tomorrow or something. Ohohohohoho. I'm back. xD

I can't believe it.

Y'know, in life, there are things that happen without you knowing. I guess this is one of those times. I still remember how i first 'cosplayed', so to speak. It was because i was going to perform for a cosplay event. I just figured there was no harm trying. So i tried cosplaying. Right now, looking back at it, i can't say it was a really good cosplay (my apologies). My point is, I never took cosplay seriously before. It was just something additional for my performances.

Not even in 2010 when i participated in my first karaoke competition. Not even in EOY'10 when i had my next EOY performance.

But who knew (not even I knew!) that cosplay would be such an important part of my life now. I can't help but WANT to cosplay. I can't help but want to make my cosplay a good one. I can't help this inner greed that wants to learn more about sewing costumes, make up and anything involving cosplay. I know I can't do well in everything, but i haven't found something that i can specialize in yet. In the future perhaps.

The main point is: I never realized how cosplay has grown on me until like, recently when i started to have space in my head to think about matters properly. I can't really get the right words out right now though. All i know is that I'm really glad i found something that i'm really passionate about aside from singing/performing. Some might say "Oh, this is just the sudden thrill of it", but i beg to differ. I have this instinctive feel that I'll be sticking to cosplay (and singing of course) for a long time to come. And i feel that the main reason of why cosplay has become such an in-grown part of me is because of the various influences around me.

I see people putting in so much effort into cosplay, into their make-up, into their costumes- all of these subconsciously affects me as well. Slowly, i start to want to be like them. I start to want to be as passionate as they are. Slowly, i find this perfectionism within me motivating myself. Urgh, getting a little hard to explain here. But well, I WANT to grow. I don't want to remain at my current level and be satisfied with how i am when they are people constantly upgrading themselves.

Same goes for school. Even though i have more of a passion for cosplay and performing as compared to school (lolol), I'll try and do my best there as well. After all, I did promise two lovable idiots that i'd do well. <3 So I will. And i told my lecturer that it's not impossible for me to do well, too. Guess i'll have to back up what i've said.

In any case, there's so many people that i'd like to thank for their influence and guidance. I still want to improve myself in various ways possible (in my instrument as well), so i hope that all of you will watch me grow.

And i'll try to be more active on my DA as well. ;D